Well, it appears I was right! Tesco's St John's wort tablets contain 170mg of the extract, and the instructionson the bottle say you should take one tablet a day.
The other company's tablets, a company called Healthy Direct, contain 334mg of the extract, and according to this other company's instructions, you can take 1 or 2 tablets daily.
So then, thats a total of 668mg a day, compared to Tesco's 170mg a day. No prizes for guessing why Tesco's tablets don't work then, is there?
I've only been taking these tablets, once daily, for three days, so I'm not getting any effects yet. I'll keep you posted.........
Wednesday, November 29, 2006
Tuesday, November 28, 2006
If Only I Had the Guts
I'd remortgage the house, leave work, and really work the business for 12 months. Really build it up, make it brilliant. If I fail, I could always go back to work, but I know if I did this, the depression might really take over and I'd never leave the house.
12 months from work? Its a dream, and I know that if I did fail in building my business, I'd never be able to work a regular job again. Ever.
Oh God, I wish I was stronger than what I am.
12 months from work? Its a dream, and I know that if I did fail in building my business, I'd never be able to work a regular job again. Ever.
Oh God, I wish I was stronger than what I am.
My Biggest Problem
My biggest problem overall is stress. Everyday, there's a new problem that demands my immediate attention and side tracks me from my plans. I plan every day with precision almost, aiming to do this, that and the other etc. then Something Else comes along, sidetracks me, so I end up doing nothing.
So frustrating....and all the time I see all the work piling up, increasing every day, collecting problems along the way, increasing my workload even more, sidetracking me again, meaning I do even less. Which increases stress even more.
Eventally, it reaches a stalemate, where I have so much to do that it prevents me from starting anything else because, sub conciously, I'm just waiting for the next problem to come along.
I just waste so much time dealing with problems that I have no time left for life - my life.
I'm always out, at work, having to do everything I have to do, according to responsibility, society or family, that I cannot begin to do what I want to do. I want to control my life, not have it controlled by everything else
So frustrating....and all the time I see all the work piling up, increasing every day, collecting problems along the way, increasing my workload even more, sidetracking me again, meaning I do even less. Which increases stress even more.
Eventally, it reaches a stalemate, where I have so much to do that it prevents me from starting anything else because, sub conciously, I'm just waiting for the next problem to come along.
I just waste so much time dealing with problems that I have no time left for life - my life.
I'm always out, at work, having to do everything I have to do, according to responsibility, society or family, that I cannot begin to do what I want to do. I want to control my life, not have it controlled by everything else
More About Me
No, I'm not really vain! It's just that, in order to tell you my story, and everything that may happen in the future with this log, I have to introduce you to me.
You will know from my previous post that I'm 42, married, four kids, two of which are still at home. I'm plagued by depression which comes on without reason or cause, but I guess that extreme tiredness can be a good trigger. the problem there is that I have to work to subsidise my business, and my job (I'm a Security Officer) involves a working pattern of one week days/one week nights/one week off. I still work 12 hour shifts, which make a 14 hour day after travelling, but having the third week off (hopefully anyway-staff shortages/sickness etc) balances the three weeks work cycle out to 42 hours weekly, which is that European Directive we here in Britain are supposed to comply with.
The depression, when it strikes, is horrible. I crave isolation and hate going out. I have a daily battle because life forces me to leave the house for one reason or another every day. Every day I have the same battle. I can't go back to the doctors as I'm trying to sort life insurance out at the moment, and if these companies find out I've been to the doctors twice about this, they'll obviously know it's a recurring problem - and the life premiums will go through the roof as a result. Just can't afford it.
So, I'm buying natural remedies to help. I've been on St Johns Wort from the local Tesco for about 2 months, and I've read in a health catalogue from someone that I can buy stronger tablets for about the same cost. Tesco only have a few mg of St Johns Wort in their tablets, whereas this other company's tablets are a lot stronger. I'll update the depression log with the exact difference tomorrow when everyone here is out, and I can check the tablets without causing concern.
What else is there to tell? Well, I smoke. 40-50 a day, and I love every single one of them. Obvioulsy I've got a chest/breathing complaint, which again is solved with tablets from the local chemist. Again, no doctor. I drink gallons of tea every day. My over riding, perfect hobby is being at home with my family around me. I don't care what we do when we're together, as long as we do it together, and don't have to go out to do it.
You will know from my previous post that I'm 42, married, four kids, two of which are still at home. I'm plagued by depression which comes on without reason or cause, but I guess that extreme tiredness can be a good trigger. the problem there is that I have to work to subsidise my business, and my job (I'm a Security Officer) involves a working pattern of one week days/one week nights/one week off. I still work 12 hour shifts, which make a 14 hour day after travelling, but having the third week off (hopefully anyway-staff shortages/sickness etc) balances the three weeks work cycle out to 42 hours weekly, which is that European Directive we here in Britain are supposed to comply with.
The depression, when it strikes, is horrible. I crave isolation and hate going out. I have a daily battle because life forces me to leave the house for one reason or another every day. Every day I have the same battle. I can't go back to the doctors as I'm trying to sort life insurance out at the moment, and if these companies find out I've been to the doctors twice about this, they'll obviously know it's a recurring problem - and the life premiums will go through the roof as a result. Just can't afford it.
So, I'm buying natural remedies to help. I've been on St Johns Wort from the local Tesco for about 2 months, and I've read in a health catalogue from someone that I can buy stronger tablets for about the same cost. Tesco only have a few mg of St Johns Wort in their tablets, whereas this other company's tablets are a lot stronger. I'll update the depression log with the exact difference tomorrow when everyone here is out, and I can check the tablets without causing concern.
What else is there to tell? Well, I smoke. 40-50 a day, and I love every single one of them. Obvioulsy I've got a chest/breathing complaint, which again is solved with tablets from the local chemist. Again, no doctor. I drink gallons of tea every day. My over riding, perfect hobby is being at home with my family around me. I don't care what we do when we're together, as long as we do it together, and don't have to go out to do it.
Welcome To My World
My names Paul. I'm 42, married, UK born and bred, 4 grown up kids, two still at home.I've started this diary as it's a recognised part of a therapy regime for someone who suffers with depression - keeping a diary that is, not online blogging! I think the Americans call it journalising.
I'll give anything a go.
Whats The Point of this Blog?
Three months ago my business was almost there - I run two, soon to be three, internet businesses, and I was beginning to see the light at the end of the tunnel. All it needed was one final push and I'd be working from home full time.
With the depression aspect, I have a constant, daily battle to go to work, as one of my symptoms of depression is that I never want to go out anywhere, just stay in at home, but I am always forced to go out every day, to work or wherever, and I very rarely get a full 24 hour period where I don't have to go out.
Thats why I worked so hard, so long, every day on my business for almost 3 years - because an internet business would allow me to work, but stay at home, learning everything from scratch. Simple as that. Life was beginning to have a meaningful purpose.
What are my Businesses?
I aim to stay anominous (is that spelt right?)in this blog, so I'm not giving names or links to myself or my businesses. I run two internet marketing businesses - one I think is the worlds biggest marketing support site, and secondly, I run a safelist business, where members can promote their goods and services to each other. A safelist is, basically, a group of people on a list who agree to accept advertisement emails from other members of the group, in return for the priviledge of being able to send their own ads out. Safelist memberships can number ten of thousands of people. Its a cheap, effective way of advertising, making money and being able to work from home. If you run a business yourself, you'll be able to use my business services to build your business.
The beginning of the end?
I only have 9 members left now. Over the last few months, three major incidents have helped to almost stall the business, lose loads of members, and set me back almost 3 years.
These 3 major incidents are:
Stormpay, one of my payment processors, crashing taking, apparently, thousands of dollars with them. This, alone, shook the internet world and it took ages for people to trust on line pay processors again.
Then Paypal, the biggest on line payment processor, told me to take their payment buttons off my web site because they saw my business as spamming people, and they would not support such businesses.
Safelist members have to confirm-twice-that they wish to join a safelist. That makes them double opt-in confirmed members who agree to receive other members emails. You cannot spam confirmed members who join a group specifically to receive emails. Paypal disagree, and I've had to pull all references to them off my sites. I rarely make sales using other payment processors, people don't trust them like they do Paypal. Most members lost - at a stroke.
The final incident in the trio was due to one man, remaining nameless for the time being, deciding to switch from running safelists to email boxes without telling anyone. Result - hundreds of safelist groups gone - overnight. Including ones I owned and others I paid to access from my safelist submitter business. Hundreds of lists, thousands of members, and God knows how much money went down with him.
End Result?
A safelist business without safelists and members. New members who want to join my business cannot pay because they only trust Paypal to handle their money. Safelist submitters that cannot send ads out because the safelists have simply disappeared. Most paying members gone. I'm back to three years ago - subsidising my business from my wages.
What's a Safelist Submitter?
Safelist members can post their ads to other safelist members for free, normally once a week, by logging into each safelist, typing the ad out, clicking send, and logging out. Normally, it takes about 2-3 minutes upwards to send an ad to each safelist. The safelist script then posts that ad to each member individually.
Safelist submitters do all that-automatically, and send your ad to thousands of safelists at the same time. Safelist submitters are an amazing piece of kit, and if they work properly,and the lists exist to send the ads to, members can advertise to hundreds of thousands of people instantly by simply clicking the send button. I own one of these safelist submitters, and 20 safelist groups.
I'm luckier than most
I saw something wasn't quite right with my safelist service provider. Most of his lists would crash and go off line every weekend. I couldn't access my submitter half the time, and when I could, it kept giving me run time errors, preventing me working with it.
After I'd brought this submitter off this man, support emails were answered - for a time. Then I started getting no replies, no acknowledgements, and constant timeout from both the submitter and safelists themselves.
Eventually, I got so fed up that I set up my own server, moved the submitter across to the new server, and started my own safelist company at the same time. Then I pulled the plug on this man's abysmal service, charges & fees and cancelled my contract outright, without notice. It now costs me about $500/£350 a month to run my business.
Within a week this abnoxious scammer pulled his whole safelist business, taking most safelists and submitters with him. I don't know how many submitter owners this affected, as he is quite big, or was quite big, in this market.
The problem is, this man charged about $300-$500 to sell his submitters, and the owners then had to pay $25 monthly for hosting. From what I can see, he's just taken everything off line, after taking everyone's money. What a scam!
I hope this man makes millions of dollars
.......And still fiinds himself $20.00 short for his medical bills. What goes around, comes around. This man obviously lives in America- where everyone has to pay for their medical treatment.
Enough said, this is supposed to be a factual diary, not full of curses. But this man, above all else, has wrecked my business. Forgive me for feeling so strong about it
I'll give anything a go.
Whats The Point of this Blog?
Three months ago my business was almost there - I run two, soon to be three, internet businesses, and I was beginning to see the light at the end of the tunnel. All it needed was one final push and I'd be working from home full time.
With the depression aspect, I have a constant, daily battle to go to work, as one of my symptoms of depression is that I never want to go out anywhere, just stay in at home, but I am always forced to go out every day, to work or wherever, and I very rarely get a full 24 hour period where I don't have to go out.
Thats why I worked so hard, so long, every day on my business for almost 3 years - because an internet business would allow me to work, but stay at home, learning everything from scratch. Simple as that. Life was beginning to have a meaningful purpose.
What are my Businesses?
I aim to stay anominous (is that spelt right?)in this blog, so I'm not giving names or links to myself or my businesses. I run two internet marketing businesses - one I think is the worlds biggest marketing support site, and secondly, I run a safelist business, where members can promote their goods and services to each other. A safelist is, basically, a group of people on a list who agree to accept advertisement emails from other members of the group, in return for the priviledge of being able to send their own ads out. Safelist memberships can number ten of thousands of people. Its a cheap, effective way of advertising, making money and being able to work from home. If you run a business yourself, you'll be able to use my business services to build your business.
The beginning of the end?
I only have 9 members left now. Over the last few months, three major incidents have helped to almost stall the business, lose loads of members, and set me back almost 3 years.
These 3 major incidents are:
Stormpay, one of my payment processors, crashing taking, apparently, thousands of dollars with them. This, alone, shook the internet world and it took ages for people to trust on line pay processors again.
Then Paypal, the biggest on line payment processor, told me to take their payment buttons off my web site because they saw my business as spamming people, and they would not support such businesses.
Safelist members have to confirm-twice-that they wish to join a safelist. That makes them double opt-in confirmed members who agree to receive other members emails. You cannot spam confirmed members who join a group specifically to receive emails. Paypal disagree, and I've had to pull all references to them off my sites. I rarely make sales using other payment processors, people don't trust them like they do Paypal. Most members lost - at a stroke.
The final incident in the trio was due to one man, remaining nameless for the time being, deciding to switch from running safelists to email boxes without telling anyone. Result - hundreds of safelist groups gone - overnight. Including ones I owned and others I paid to access from my safelist submitter business. Hundreds of lists, thousands of members, and God knows how much money went down with him.
End Result?
A safelist business without safelists and members. New members who want to join my business cannot pay because they only trust Paypal to handle their money. Safelist submitters that cannot send ads out because the safelists have simply disappeared. Most paying members gone. I'm back to three years ago - subsidising my business from my wages.
What's a Safelist Submitter?
Safelist members can post their ads to other safelist members for free, normally once a week, by logging into each safelist, typing the ad out, clicking send, and logging out. Normally, it takes about 2-3 minutes upwards to send an ad to each safelist. The safelist script then posts that ad to each member individually.
Safelist submitters do all that-automatically, and send your ad to thousands of safelists at the same time. Safelist submitters are an amazing piece of kit, and if they work properly,and the lists exist to send the ads to, members can advertise to hundreds of thousands of people instantly by simply clicking the send button. I own one of these safelist submitters, and 20 safelist groups.
I'm luckier than most
I saw something wasn't quite right with my safelist service provider. Most of his lists would crash and go off line every weekend. I couldn't access my submitter half the time, and when I could, it kept giving me run time errors, preventing me working with it.
After I'd brought this submitter off this man, support emails were answered - for a time. Then I started getting no replies, no acknowledgements, and constant timeout from both the submitter and safelists themselves.
Eventually, I got so fed up that I set up my own server, moved the submitter across to the new server, and started my own safelist company at the same time. Then I pulled the plug on this man's abysmal service, charges & fees and cancelled my contract outright, without notice. It now costs me about $500/£350 a month to run my business.
Within a week this abnoxious scammer pulled his whole safelist business, taking most safelists and submitters with him. I don't know how many submitter owners this affected, as he is quite big, or was quite big, in this market.
The problem is, this man charged about $300-$500 to sell his submitters, and the owners then had to pay $25 monthly for hosting. From what I can see, he's just taken everything off line, after taking everyone's money. What a scam!
I hope this man makes millions of dollars
.......And still fiinds himself $20.00 short for his medical bills. What goes around, comes around. This man obviously lives in America- where everyone has to pay for their medical treatment.
Enough said, this is supposed to be a factual diary, not full of curses. But this man, above all else, has wrecked my business. Forgive me for feeling so strong about it
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