I don't know what's going wrong at the moment - I just can't seem to get motivated to do anything I need to do. I have loads I NEED to do, but I'm doing other things to stop me doing what I need to.
I've been so angry lately - and I don't know why. I hope I'm not sinking into the black moods again.
I was supposed to have put the finishing touches to my business plans today, but I couldn't be bothered. Because I'm so angry, I've done 5 or 6 hours in the garden today, started off cutting the front grass, then put in some really physical labour to try and get rid of the anger in me by cutting a conifer edge back.
Didn't help matters when one of the Vultures called at the house again asking (begging) for my money - which I don't have - and this one makes it the second one in as many days.
I just don't know why - or understand why - I'm starting to feel like this again. This was my last day off for a week and I set the alarm clock purposefully at 8am this morning because I had a lot to do. Still have got a lot to do as well now.
Everythings irritating me - noise, bright lights, talking, silence, tight chest, headache,smoking too much, running out of sugar, and lots more as well. I'm not talking myself into anything here, if it is depression, again, it makes it worse talking about it.
Tomorrows a different day. Tomorrows a new day. Hopefully, I'll get my a*se into gear and start sorting things out so I can stop getting angry with myself for not doing things I know I should.
Tommorow's the day I start. Again.
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