Still off work, still decorating, still trying to catch up. No advertising today, but got the one subscription fee from one of my regular customers.
Stomach starting to give me serious grief now - roll on tomorrow when I can get my tablets. I'll try not to run out in future.
Body's still trying to adjust itself - and my mental state - from working nights to being a normal human being on days again. I still get desperately tired at all times of the day & I can't work out why.
Other than that, nothing to report really.
"Eliminating failure as an option"
Until tomorrow,
Paul
Wednesday, January 31, 2007
Tuesday, January 30, 2007
Tuesday January 30th
Well, here we are, the first month of the year is almost over already. Plans and resolutions blown out of the water.
Still off work and decorating - and believe it or not, I'm even behind schedule here as well. I was aiming on finishing this section of the decorating by the end of Wednesday, and spending Thursday & Friday on the business - well, I reckon now I'm going to have to spend Thursday decorating as well, and if I finish the painting & putting up the ceiling tiles then, that will give me just Friday free on the business.
My stomach ulcer has started to play up today - the windpipe feels as though it's red raw inside again. Run out of stomach tablets, can't get any more now until Thursday
No new sales, no advertising today.
"Eliminating Failure as an option"
Until Tomorrow,
Paul
Still off work and decorating - and believe it or not, I'm even behind schedule here as well. I was aiming on finishing this section of the decorating by the end of Wednesday, and spending Thursday & Friday on the business - well, I reckon now I'm going to have to spend Thursday decorating as well, and if I finish the painting & putting up the ceiling tiles then, that will give me just Friday free on the business.
My stomach ulcer has started to play up today - the windpipe feels as though it's red raw inside again. Run out of stomach tablets, can't get any more now until Thursday
No new sales, no advertising today.
"Eliminating Failure as an option"
Until Tomorrow,
Paul
Monday, January 29, 2007
Monday 29th January - Time flies so fast
I can't believe just how fast time goes. After finishing the last nightshift at 7am Saturday morning, I got home at 8am,went to bed at about 9 and got up at 12.30, so looking forward to going back to bed at night.
The problem is though that the first day after finishing a set of nights is always wasted as I have to readjust back to day living. So Saturdays totally wasted.
Sunday I didn't do anything except help my friend from work sort out our kitchen and shower. So hard transferring wire from the meter up into the loft, across the loft and back down into the kitchen area.
Glass Fibre everywhere from the loft insulation, and aches and pains from bending down into seriously small gaps under the lowest point of the roof eaves, having to lie totally flat on my stomach! We finished this work off at about 6pm, after starting at 10.30am, so it was a long, hard day for both of us.
Then Monday, I've started decorating the bathroom and lounge, hoping to get most of it finished by Wednesday (this bit of decorating anyway - can't afford to do it all at once). Thursday & Friday I'll concentrate on the business.
Its nice having a few days off from both work and the business - but the reminder letters keep coming through the letterbox reminding me that I should still be working to pay these bills.
And for these 5 days, I don't care. I need to rest from nights and get other bits of my life sorted out.
I'm doing my revised accounts during a few quiet hours on Saturday. The retail business should be up and running on my American servers within a week - and then I've just got to upload all the sales pages, so that transfer is seriously under way.
And I've re-ordered my St Johns Wort (the proper ones, not the Tesco ones) to help keep these dark moods at bay. As much as possible, anyway.
"Removing Failure as an option"
Until tomorrow,
Paul
The problem is though that the first day after finishing a set of nights is always wasted as I have to readjust back to day living. So Saturdays totally wasted.
Sunday I didn't do anything except help my friend from work sort out our kitchen and shower. So hard transferring wire from the meter up into the loft, across the loft and back down into the kitchen area.
Glass Fibre everywhere from the loft insulation, and aches and pains from bending down into seriously small gaps under the lowest point of the roof eaves, having to lie totally flat on my stomach! We finished this work off at about 6pm, after starting at 10.30am, so it was a long, hard day for both of us.
Then Monday, I've started decorating the bathroom and lounge, hoping to get most of it finished by Wednesday (this bit of decorating anyway - can't afford to do it all at once). Thursday & Friday I'll concentrate on the business.
Its nice having a few days off from both work and the business - but the reminder letters keep coming through the letterbox reminding me that I should still be working to pay these bills.
And for these 5 days, I don't care. I need to rest from nights and get other bits of my life sorted out.
I'm doing my revised accounts during a few quiet hours on Saturday. The retail business should be up and running on my American servers within a week - and then I've just got to upload all the sales pages, so that transfer is seriously under way.
And I've re-ordered my St Johns Wort (the proper ones, not the Tesco ones) to help keep these dark moods at bay. As much as possible, anyway.
"Removing Failure as an option"
Until tomorrow,
Paul
Friday, January 26, 2007
Thursday 25 January - The Law Of Attraction
I've been reading up on some self development issues lately and one report I read stated that this unwritten law, the Law of Attraction, means that you attract into your life what you think about most of the time
Hello? Now, I'm not sure about this. Sure, I think about money (poverty/vultures) most of the time because I'm always firefighting them all the time.
It got me thinking though. So, just to clear up the atmosphere, as it were, the only reason I concentrate on money issues is that I know what I need to earn to live comfortably, that is, to be able to pay all the bills when they fall due.
The only way I can do this is by putting monthly amounts away every payday so that, when the bills arrive, the money is already there, or at least, will be within the next month.
And the problems caused because my expenses are going to be about £36,000 this year. I earn an average £20,000. That's my whole problem
But life also constantly throws new problems at me - as this blog has perhaps demonstrated the short time it's been on air. Although I'm grateful for every day I'm alive, and for the health of myself and my family, is there really anyone else who has such long runs of bad luck?
And how do others manage to live on a wage? I have no credit cards, bank loans or overdrafts to repay, so in theory, I'm a lot better off because I don't have these to pay every month?
Or is the problem caused simply because I don't have these accounts?
And todays problem is........ I've had to take my car off the road this morning because that noise and vibration problem that started last week is now there All the time.
It sounds (and feels) like an expensive problem, as car faults normally are. I can't do anything about this until I'm off at the weekend, so I'll have to use the wifes car for a couple of days. This has, straight away, blown next months budget straight through the window.
I wouldn't mind, but I'd just put another weeks petrol in last night on the way to work.
The Law of attraction..........I don't think so somehow.
Until tomorrow
Paul
Hello? Now, I'm not sure about this. Sure, I think about money (poverty/vultures) most of the time because I'm always firefighting them all the time.
It got me thinking though. So, just to clear up the atmosphere, as it were, the only reason I concentrate on money issues is that I know what I need to earn to live comfortably, that is, to be able to pay all the bills when they fall due.
The only way I can do this is by putting monthly amounts away every payday so that, when the bills arrive, the money is already there, or at least, will be within the next month.
And the problems caused because my expenses are going to be about £36,000 this year. I earn an average £20,000. That's my whole problem
But life also constantly throws new problems at me - as this blog has perhaps demonstrated the short time it's been on air. Although I'm grateful for every day I'm alive, and for the health of myself and my family, is there really anyone else who has such long runs of bad luck?
And how do others manage to live on a wage? I have no credit cards, bank loans or overdrafts to repay, so in theory, I'm a lot better off because I don't have these to pay every month?
Or is the problem caused simply because I don't have these accounts?
And todays problem is........ I've had to take my car off the road this morning because that noise and vibration problem that started last week is now there All the time.
It sounds (and feels) like an expensive problem, as car faults normally are. I can't do anything about this until I'm off at the weekend, so I'll have to use the wifes car for a couple of days. This has, straight away, blown next months budget straight through the window.
I wouldn't mind, but I'd just put another weeks petrol in last night on the way to work.
The Law of attraction..........I don't think so somehow.
Until tomorrow
Paul
Wednesday, January 24, 2007
Wednesday 24th January - 2 sales today
Well, this is more like it! checked my emails after coming home this morning and got two new sales, one of which is a one off new customer with a one time only order, and the other is one of my regular subscribers.
Having woken up tired again at 2.00pm last nights shift was a long, drawn out one again. I'm starting to hit the tiredness stage again, which is a pain. The temperature outside going down to minus 2, with a wind chill factor of -3 at some stages made sure it was a cold one as well.
Other than that, nothing to report really. Had another debt letter come through the post, done no adveritsing, aiming to do this using the submitter Thursday, friday and Saturday. Thinking of joining some more safelist groups, but I have to do these manually because they charge me a rental fee to access the using the submitter software.
I'm aiming on rewriting my goal list out this weekend and readjusting the accounts forJanuary, carrying the accounts I haven't paid forward to next month, and finding out how much my debt has increased again. Good job I don't use credit cards isn't it?
Until tomorrow
Paul
Having woken up tired again at 2.00pm last nights shift was a long, drawn out one again. I'm starting to hit the tiredness stage again, which is a pain. The temperature outside going down to minus 2, with a wind chill factor of -3 at some stages made sure it was a cold one as well.
Other than that, nothing to report really. Had another debt letter come through the post, done no adveritsing, aiming to do this using the submitter Thursday, friday and Saturday. Thinking of joining some more safelist groups, but I have to do these manually because they charge me a rental fee to access the using the submitter software.
I'm aiming on rewriting my goal list out this weekend and readjusting the accounts forJanuary, carrying the accounts I haven't paid forward to next month, and finding out how much my debt has increased again. Good job I don't use credit cards isn't it?
Until tomorrow
Paul
Tuesday, January 23, 2007
Tuesday 23 January - The snow arrives
And it did, at 1.50 am on the night shift in Kings Lynn to be precise. Fortunately nothing too dramatic, nothing too bad, and it didn't stick for long.
But it was cold. And I don't know what it is, but the cold seems to make my stomach stricture swell up and it gets uncomfortable. The swelling was still up when I went to bed.
No advertising done today, no sales either. Where does time go? I'm writing this at 5.45 pm and I'm just getting ready to leave for tonights shift. Woke up tired, so I guess this next nightshift is going to be a long one.
Phoned the bank today and cancelled my direct debit for Telecom, paid the months installment on the electric bill instead and put the rest to petrol. We've just got a quarterly account with Eastern Energy and we were supposed to be paying £10 weekly - but we had a letter come yesterday saying, yes, that plans fine, but we have to pay the first month in full first. So that's the rest of this month's budget ruined then.
Still trying to juggle finances the best way I can. The vultures letters come through the door daily.
Roll on the time the business takes off and I don't have to struggle for cash so much. Fed up of struggling all the time.
Until tomorrow
Paul
But it was cold. And I don't know what it is, but the cold seems to make my stomach stricture swell up and it gets uncomfortable. The swelling was still up when I went to bed.
No advertising done today, no sales either. Where does time go? I'm writing this at 5.45 pm and I'm just getting ready to leave for tonights shift. Woke up tired, so I guess this next nightshift is going to be a long one.
Phoned the bank today and cancelled my direct debit for Telecom, paid the months installment on the electric bill instead and put the rest to petrol. We've just got a quarterly account with Eastern Energy and we were supposed to be paying £10 weekly - but we had a letter come yesterday saying, yes, that plans fine, but we have to pay the first month in full first. So that's the rest of this month's budget ruined then.
Still trying to juggle finances the best way I can. The vultures letters come through the door daily.
Roll on the time the business takes off and I don't have to struggle for cash so much. Fed up of struggling all the time.
Until tomorrow
Paul
Monday, January 22, 2007
Monday 22 January - Back on nights
Well, this shows why my body clock is totally shot through - Finished a nightshift at 7am Saturday, changed from nights to days and went back to work 7am Sunday, and now I'm back on nights tonight starting at 7pm.
Spent the day on my retail web site rather than the business site, as I was planning to do yesterday, as I see things happening quicker, and more doors opening, with the retail site on line, so I did another few pages of this during the day.
Yesterdays shift was quite good - I managed to get 6 hours total isolation which helps put my brain in order for a while.
Other than that, did no advertising today, I don't know what todays web page count is because I haven't checked the counter, and there's no sales today either. But, with an extra 9 hours to myself today everything was pressure free - and , at the moment, that's what I need.
Until tomorrow
Paul
Spent the day on my retail web site rather than the business site, as I was planning to do yesterday, as I see things happening quicker, and more doors opening, with the retail site on line, so I did another few pages of this during the day.
Yesterdays shift was quite good - I managed to get 6 hours total isolation which helps put my brain in order for a while.
Other than that, did no advertising today, I don't know what todays web page count is because I haven't checked the counter, and there's no sales today either. But, with an extra 9 hours to myself today everything was pressure free - and , at the moment, that's what I need.
Until tomorrow
Paul
Sunday, January 21, 2007
Sunday 21 January - A normal day
Did a few hours overtime today, every little helps. Got back home at about 1.30pm, sent some ads out using the submitter, then finished putting the fence panels back up that I started yesterday.
Feel better today thanks to the double dose of sleep yesterday, even though I had to get up at 5am this morning. Back on nights tomorrow on my normal shift. Looking forward to 7am Saturday when my week of nights is over and I've got a few days off at home for a welcome change. Been totally on the go today since 5am. and its now almost 8pm as I write this.
Still no sales, although the web page is getting an average 15-20 hits per day according to the counter. Aiming to concentrate on the membership site tomorrow and get new affiliate pages on line.
Until tomorrow
Paul
Feel better today thanks to the double dose of sleep yesterday, even though I had to get up at 5am this morning. Back on nights tomorrow on my normal shift. Looking forward to 7am Saturday when my week of nights is over and I've got a few days off at home for a welcome change. Been totally on the go today since 5am. and its now almost 8pm as I write this.
Still no sales, although the web page is getting an average 15-20 hits per day according to the counter. Aiming to concentrate on the membership site tomorrow and get new affiliate pages on line.
Until tomorrow
Paul
Saturday, January 20, 2007
Saturday 20th January - No time for anything
Made one new sale on the business - this is a repeat subscription fee, otherwise, 20 people have checked my website after hitting the ads with the submitter yesterday, but there's no new sales.
Haven't advertised today - no time. Try again tomorrow.
Last nights shift dragged with countless interuptions again. Hard when you just want to be on your own. Night off tonight, but I'm back at work on overtime at 7am tomorrow morning, so I'm up at 5 again.
Bodyclock, obviously, totally shot through.
Spent the afternoon after getting up after 4 hours sleep sorting out the fence that was blown down on Thursday, geting the posts up, re-cementing, replacing again. Still not finished - I'm aiming to finish off tomorrow after coming home from work, after I've sent more ads out using the submitter.
I've had the day off from the computer apart from checking emails and the blogs and - I've started to transfer my retail web site over to my American servers to save some money.
Shortfall total to date on the £50,000 target earnings: £1,471.69
Until tomorrow
Paul
Haven't advertised today - no time. Try again tomorrow.
Last nights shift dragged with countless interuptions again. Hard when you just want to be on your own. Night off tonight, but I'm back at work on overtime at 7am tomorrow morning, so I'm up at 5 again.
Bodyclock, obviously, totally shot through.
Spent the afternoon after getting up after 4 hours sleep sorting out the fence that was blown down on Thursday, geting the posts up, re-cementing, replacing again. Still not finished - I'm aiming to finish off tomorrow after coming home from work, after I've sent more ads out using the submitter.
I've had the day off from the computer apart from checking emails and the blogs and - I've started to transfer my retail web site over to my American servers to save some money.
Shortfall total to date on the £50,000 target earnings: £1,471.69
Until tomorrow
Paul
Friday 19th January - Its back again
The speed it crept up on me has surprised me. I left the house to drive to work for nightshift with an overwhelming sense of tiredness but the over riding emotion has to be the anger.Everyone around me at the moment is happy, cheerful and laughing. Why does that irritate me? Why am I angered by people talking to me when all I want is silence?
Everythings irritating me now. Too much noise, everywhere.I'm craving isolation and sleep. I need to be left alone. I drive to work in silence. Why is life controlling me so much, when it's supposed to be the other way around?
My head aches at the back with a tightness that is unreal in pain and streches from ear to ear. My mouth ulcers/blisters hurt as a result of the excess stomach acid. Tears are pricking my eyes. The level of stress is borderline fit to burst.I have a dull ache which occasionally turns to a sharp pain in my left shoulder.
I have so much to do. No time to do it. My life is full of interuptions I neither want nor need. I know I cannot be left alone, nor can I stay at home to do what I want to do. The dark black mood has set in again over the last 2 hours and I can't do anything about it at all, although I understand it's mechanics. Now I don't know how long it will last for again. Must get some more proper St John's Wort, but just cannot be bothered.
Instead, I'l just waste another 12 pointless hours of my life here at work in my pointless job. As I park my car on the car park I seriously think of just turning around again, never to come back. But the responsibility tells me I can't. Too many bills, direct debits and responsibilities.
I put a polo in my mouth to help get rid of my thirst and help keep the stomach acid down, take a deep breath, and walk into work, so angry that I am so powerless.
The one thing this horrible curse/disease has taught me is to be a dammed good liar. I pretend to be cheerful as I walk through the door.
Until next time
Paul
Everythings irritating me now. Too much noise, everywhere.I'm craving isolation and sleep. I need to be left alone. I drive to work in silence. Why is life controlling me so much, when it's supposed to be the other way around?
My head aches at the back with a tightness that is unreal in pain and streches from ear to ear. My mouth ulcers/blisters hurt as a result of the excess stomach acid. Tears are pricking my eyes. The level of stress is borderline fit to burst.I have a dull ache which occasionally turns to a sharp pain in my left shoulder.
I have so much to do. No time to do it. My life is full of interuptions I neither want nor need. I know I cannot be left alone, nor can I stay at home to do what I want to do. The dark black mood has set in again over the last 2 hours and I can't do anything about it at all, although I understand it's mechanics. Now I don't know how long it will last for again. Must get some more proper St John's Wort, but just cannot be bothered.
Instead, I'l just waste another 12 pointless hours of my life here at work in my pointless job. As I park my car on the car park I seriously think of just turning around again, never to come back. But the responsibility tells me I can't. Too many bills, direct debits and responsibilities.
I put a polo in my mouth to help get rid of my thirst and help keep the stomach acid down, take a deep breath, and walk into work, so angry that I am so powerless.
The one thing this horrible curse/disease has taught me is to be a dammed good liar. I pretend to be cheerful as I walk through the door.
Until next time
Paul
Friday, January 19, 2007
Friday 19th January- Direct Debited to death
The vultures have started circling again. All it seems sometimes is that I work hard every month for long hours just to give every penny away to the vultures, who seem to be always circling my life, but for 10 days or so every month, they take turns in landing at my front door.
How can I make attempts to control my bank account when I have no choice but to be direct debited to death every month? These are the people who go into my bank account- when they see fit to- and just take money. What gives these people the right to demand payment only by direct debit because no other payment process is used (Car Insurance) or because they charge me £30 monthly on top of the normal payment if I pay any other way than direct debit (the mortgage). Why do some companies insist on trying to take payments when I've cancelled the Direct Debit anyway?
The letters are coming in now from the accounts I couldn't pay this month. As expected. The bank must love me at the this time of the month!
My one Big Thing this year has to be hit the £50,000 mark to cover all the bills and make sure I pick up the nett amount of cash I need. The only problem with that though is that, so far this month, I should have earned £2465.82 - but I've only managed to earn £1164. 00. Just 19 days into the new year and I'm already £1301.82 short of the amount I need to earn just to pay the bills, after tax and the rest of it.
Like I said a couple of days ago, wages are now totally inadequate for living. With inflation now running at the highest level in 15 years, the fourth mortgage/interest rise in 7 months on it's way next month (meaning my mortgage would have gone up by £100 per month), the Council tax due in 6 weeks time - higher than last year - of course - and no pay rise for 2 years.
There's definately a recession on the way again. Helped along, no doubt by Labours spending - and it's always us who carry the can and pick up the pieces.
This business must take off. If I can help people by giving them what they want or need for a lower price then it must be good - for them, as well as me. Then, I can stop struggling to earn a living, and make some proper money instead. Then we start to live instead of survivng until the next pay day.
I've had a beautiful comment from julie this morning on one of my posts. Thanks julie, I've replied on the same post. There are some wonderful, understanding people out there. And I'm grateful.
Until tomorrow
Paul
How can I make attempts to control my bank account when I have no choice but to be direct debited to death every month? These are the people who go into my bank account- when they see fit to- and just take money. What gives these people the right to demand payment only by direct debit because no other payment process is used (Car Insurance) or because they charge me £30 monthly on top of the normal payment if I pay any other way than direct debit (the mortgage). Why do some companies insist on trying to take payments when I've cancelled the Direct Debit anyway?
The letters are coming in now from the accounts I couldn't pay this month. As expected. The bank must love me at the this time of the month!
My one Big Thing this year has to be hit the £50,000 mark to cover all the bills and make sure I pick up the nett amount of cash I need. The only problem with that though is that, so far this month, I should have earned £2465.82 - but I've only managed to earn £1164. 00. Just 19 days into the new year and I'm already £1301.82 short of the amount I need to earn just to pay the bills, after tax and the rest of it.
Like I said a couple of days ago, wages are now totally inadequate for living. With inflation now running at the highest level in 15 years, the fourth mortgage/interest rise in 7 months on it's way next month (meaning my mortgage would have gone up by £100 per month), the Council tax due in 6 weeks time - higher than last year - of course - and no pay rise for 2 years.
There's definately a recession on the way again. Helped along, no doubt by Labours spending - and it's always us who carry the can and pick up the pieces.
This business must take off. If I can help people by giving them what they want or need for a lower price then it must be good - for them, as well as me. Then, I can stop struggling to earn a living, and make some proper money instead. Then we start to live instead of survivng until the next pay day.
I've had a beautiful comment from julie this morning on one of my posts. Thanks julie, I've replied on the same post. There are some wonderful, understanding people out there. And I'm grateful.
Until tomorrow
Paul
Thursday, January 18, 2007
Thursday 18th January - Wind Damage
Well, it started raining in Kings Lynn at 2.20am this morning - and yes, I did miss it - by about half an hour!
The weather forecasters were right today- the high wind woke me up at 12pm Dinnnertime after just three hours sleep as it was - literally- shaking the window frames in the bedroom. tried getting back to sleep, but the wife then woke me up because the wind had blown down three fence panels and she couldn't get them back into the garden by herself.
Really bad weather! So this is what Global Warmings about then!
Went back to bed at 2pm to get another hours sleep, making a total of 4 today (aren't I lucky?) as I've still got to do a 12 hour nightshift tonight. Tired already - and definately got the flu starting big time. Stomachs still behaving itself - good - replaced by tension headaches by the flu. Not good.
Like I said before, I just couldn't make up my life could I?
Done some advertising using my submitter, hopefully these ads will get a few people to check out - and more importantly join - my business sites.
Until tomorrow
Paul
The weather forecasters were right today- the high wind woke me up at 12pm Dinnnertime after just three hours sleep as it was - literally- shaking the window frames in the bedroom. tried getting back to sleep, but the wife then woke me up because the wind had blown down three fence panels and she couldn't get them back into the garden by herself.
Really bad weather! So this is what Global Warmings about then!
Went back to bed at 2pm to get another hours sleep, making a total of 4 today (aren't I lucky?) as I've still got to do a 12 hour nightshift tonight. Tired already - and definately got the flu starting big time. Stomachs still behaving itself - good - replaced by tension headaches by the flu. Not good.
Like I said before, I just couldn't make up my life could I?
Done some advertising using my submitter, hopefully these ads will get a few people to check out - and more importantly join - my business sites.
Until tomorrow
Paul
Wednesday, January 17, 2007
Wednesday 17th January- One Mad Rush
Why do I put myself through this? Woke up very tired (really sore eyes) at 1.30pm because I've got millions of things to do, started working within 10 minutes of getting up. At least I've had 5 hours sleep!
Haven't done any advertising today - I'll do this Thursday, Friday & Saturday this week, see if I can pull in more sales on Saturday like I did last week. No sales today either.
The car seems to be getting worse - the noise & vibration started as soon as I started the car this morning, and lasted most of the way home. I hope it makes it through to next payday!The wife has started to get her replacement cards through from the bank today, so at least we can move on from this a little bit.
Okay, it's 4.15pm, can definately feel the stress creeping up on me again, my hearts racing and the irritibility (is that spelt right?) is unreal, got to do the tea for when everyone gets home from work, then leave the house again for another nightshift. Very bad weather forecast tonight, and as I'm outside for a couple hours as part of the nightshift, I hope I miss the rain and gales.
Nothing like getting freezing cold and soaked through when you're tired. One day I'll be able to stop working nights - it just seems a long way off at the moment.
Until tomorrow
Paul
Haven't done any advertising today - I'll do this Thursday, Friday & Saturday this week, see if I can pull in more sales on Saturday like I did last week. No sales today either.
The car seems to be getting worse - the noise & vibration started as soon as I started the car this morning, and lasted most of the way home. I hope it makes it through to next payday!The wife has started to get her replacement cards through from the bank today, so at least we can move on from this a little bit.
Okay, it's 4.15pm, can definately feel the stress creeping up on me again, my hearts racing and the irritibility (is that spelt right?) is unreal, got to do the tea for when everyone gets home from work, then leave the house again for another nightshift. Very bad weather forecast tonight, and as I'm outside for a couple hours as part of the nightshift, I hope I miss the rain and gales.
Nothing like getting freezing cold and soaked through when you're tired. One day I'll be able to stop working nights - it just seems a long way off at the moment.
Until tomorrow
Paul
Tuesday, January 16, 2007
Tuesday 16th January - 1 new customer
I'm so pleased that the business is starting to pick up now. This is an old customer who's rejoined the business support membership site.
Again, the important thing for me is try and hold on to the customers - and the one best way of doing this, I think, is to keep updating the site with new tools and so on.
Two disadvantages to this: firstly, TIME, which I'm always short of, and the money needed to keep buying the new programs.
Not a bad day all told today, no advertising, too busy, now getting ready to start another 12 hour nightshift. Still managing to do the odd occasional hour on the retail web site when it gets quiet through the night.
Had a wonderful message of support from PAWS this morning - it's nice, in one way, to get support from other people who are in the same situation. As far as I know, there are only 3 leagal ways to make money in this life of ours, and that's either inheriting money, running a business or winning the lottery.
And, on the grounds that I don't have much good luck at all these days, I've discounted the lottery option. I don't have any rich relatives, so inheritance is also out of the question. That's why I'm working so hard, and depending on, the business so much.
If your'e reading this on the itsmymarket.com blog, please be aware that there is a delay between my posting and the blogs going live as everything is moderated, especially over weekends and bank holidays. I don't want my new friends to get the impression that I'm not posting or ignoring them. Although I appreciate IMM's moderation policy,if you want to keep bang up to date, you'll have to read my mirror blog here:
http://businessman99.blogspot.com/
This blog is an exact copy of my posts here, but they go on line as soon as I've posted. I just copy and paste between the two as I'm building up support, and friendships, from both. The other blog contains earlier posts as I've been on that one since November.
Until tomorrow
Paul
Again, the important thing for me is try and hold on to the customers - and the one best way of doing this, I think, is to keep updating the site with new tools and so on.
Two disadvantages to this: firstly, TIME, which I'm always short of, and the money needed to keep buying the new programs.
Not a bad day all told today, no advertising, too busy, now getting ready to start another 12 hour nightshift. Still managing to do the odd occasional hour on the retail web site when it gets quiet through the night.
Had a wonderful message of support from PAWS this morning - it's nice, in one way, to get support from other people who are in the same situation. As far as I know, there are only 3 leagal ways to make money in this life of ours, and that's either inheriting money, running a business or winning the lottery.
And, on the grounds that I don't have much good luck at all these days, I've discounted the lottery option. I don't have any rich relatives, so inheritance is also out of the question. That's why I'm working so hard, and depending on, the business so much.
If your'e reading this on the itsmymarket.com blog, please be aware that there is a delay between my posting and the blogs going live as everything is moderated, especially over weekends and bank holidays. I don't want my new friends to get the impression that I'm not posting or ignoring them. Although I appreciate IMM's moderation policy,if you want to keep bang up to date, you'll have to read my mirror blog here:
http://businessman99.blogspot.com/
This blog is an exact copy of my posts here, but they go on line as soon as I've posted. I just copy and paste between the two as I'm building up support, and friendships, from both. The other blog contains earlier posts as I've been on that one since November.
Until tomorrow
Paul
Monday, January 15, 2007
Monday 15th January - It's Good News week
I hope this week gets better. Woken up pretty miserable (early) because I'm back at work tonight. Still feeling pretty groggy, and, the tiredness is unreal. So, so tired. waking up half way through the night for stomach medicine doesn't help either. My windpipes red raw inside from the acid. Strictures behaving itself though. For how long is a different matter.
Then the wife had her handbag stolen from out the car when she stopped off to go to a cash machine at 6.30 this morning. The handbag had everything in it, credit cards, driving licence, the lot. Lots of phone calls to get the cards stopped and the like. When she rang her bank, they told her that her card had been used 6 minutes after it was stolen! Well, they tried - didn't get any cash out, although the bank told her they'd tried to draw out £200 using an old pin number. Hello? £200 from our accounts? They must be dreaming!
The business is giving me grief at the moment through one customer who joined my marketing site, then cancelled his subscription after a couple of weeks, and now expects to still get access to everything. What is it with some people? Certainly can do without this type of customer, who serves only to blight my life with emails.
The cars still playing up too, although I've worked out (coming home yesterday) that the noise only happens when turning right, especially after braking a bit hard - think - going around roundabouts!
Okay, thats enough for today I think. Got to start getting ready for work, but I'll do a bit more advertising first. Here's hoping that this week really can get better!
Until tommorow
Paul
Then the wife had her handbag stolen from out the car when she stopped off to go to a cash machine at 6.30 this morning. The handbag had everything in it, credit cards, driving licence, the lot. Lots of phone calls to get the cards stopped and the like. When she rang her bank, they told her that her card had been used 6 minutes after it was stolen! Well, they tried - didn't get any cash out, although the bank told her they'd tried to draw out £200 using an old pin number. Hello? £200 from our accounts? They must be dreaming!
The business is giving me grief at the moment through one customer who joined my marketing site, then cancelled his subscription after a couple of weeks, and now expects to still get access to everything. What is it with some people? Certainly can do without this type of customer, who serves only to blight my life with emails.
The cars still playing up too, although I've worked out (coming home yesterday) that the noise only happens when turning right, especially after braking a bit hard - think - going around roundabouts!
Okay, thats enough for today I think. Got to start getting ready for work, but I'll do a bit more advertising first. Here's hoping that this week really can get better!
Until tommorow
Paul
Sunday, January 14, 2007
Sunday 14th January - 2 New Customers
After wasting Friday the way I did through oversleeping, I got up early Saturday in an attempt to catch up a little bit. I had lots of things outstanding from over a week ago
So, from about 1pm to 8pm, I cleared all the outstanding bits, including spending a couple of hours advertising and deleting dead lists out of the submitter, and putting 20 new ones in. The submitter now sends ads to over 1,800 groups - total list members now totals over 1 million!
Having read back through these blog posts, I realised that I haven't explained what happened in the first place to make me have to restart the business. half the story! So I've done a small report, converted it to a picture and uploaded it with this blog post for those of you interested. There's a link to one of my lists there too so you can all see what I'm talking about! The report can be downloaded from one of my web sites here as it's been converted to a passport photo here by the blog!
http://www.ezsafelists.com/BlogReport.JPG
Well, it seems peoples kind and good luck wishes are paying off! Got up at 5am this morning and went into work (overtime). On checking my emails this morning before leaving home at 6.15, I had one new customer, and after getting back home at about 2.30pm I'd got another one as well. At last. The first new customers for about 8 or 9 weeks. Just hope they stay with me now - every penny counts to the target doesn't it?
I'm so tired after changing from nights to days - and going back on nights again tomorrow, that I haven't done much else except a couple of hours advertising. Now I've broke it's back, I hope the business can carry on bringing the customers - although I've had to reduce membership prices to try and generate trade.
Until tomorrow
Paul
So, from about 1pm to 8pm, I cleared all the outstanding bits, including spending a couple of hours advertising and deleting dead lists out of the submitter, and putting 20 new ones in. The submitter now sends ads to over 1,800 groups - total list members now totals over 1 million!
Having read back through these blog posts, I realised that I haven't explained what happened in the first place to make me have to restart the business. half the story! So I've done a small report, converted it to a picture and uploaded it with this blog post for those of you interested. There's a link to one of my lists there too so you can all see what I'm talking about! The report can be downloaded from one of my web sites here as it's been converted to a passport photo here by the blog!
http://www.ezsafelists.com/BlogReport.JPG
Well, it seems peoples kind and good luck wishes are paying off! Got up at 5am this morning and went into work (overtime). On checking my emails this morning before leaving home at 6.15, I had one new customer, and after getting back home at about 2.30pm I'd got another one as well. At last. The first new customers for about 8 or 9 weeks. Just hope they stay with me now - every penny counts to the target doesn't it?
I'm so tired after changing from nights to days - and going back on nights again tomorrow, that I haven't done much else except a couple of hours advertising. Now I've broke it's back, I hope the business can carry on bringing the customers - although I've had to reduce membership prices to try and generate trade.
Until tomorrow
Paul
Saturday, January 13, 2007
Sasturday 13th January - Catch Up Day
Well, after the trauma of oversleeping yesterday and blowing the whole day as a result I'm using today to catch up a little bit.
I've definately got the wifes flu, bubbling up under the surface, so I've doubled my vitamin intake, and up to yet, the tablets here are doing an admirable job. can't afford to be off work sick!
Finished nightshift this morning at 7am, got home at 8,got the daughter and one of her friends on a sleepover, and the wifes at work doing overtime.
Talking about overtime, I've worked out that to balance my books this year I've got to earn an extra £39.93 a day for the next year - 365 days- to get the income in I need. £39.93 doesn't sound a lot, if you say it quickly does it?
To start things off, I've just managed to secure 3 overtime shifts this month, which gives me an extra £240.00. Thats only another £997.83 to earn then to balance this months figures up.
I'm still juggling this months finances to even things up a bit. I've delayed paying BT until next payday, so I'm going to use that cash on the mortgage instead. I reckon I thought about the mortgage payment 10-15 times last night when I was at work. My hardest part yesterday was telling my wife I couldn't meet this months full mortgage payment.
And yesterdays mortgage increase means the monthly bill's going to increase by about £16-18 - so my figures Thursday are already out of date.
On the positive side, I'm moving my retail website domain to my American servers - I think there's enough room on them to host it-bearing in mind the retail site is about 1,000 web pages (maybe more) all designed by me, by hand, as a web designer, and his wages, are totally out of the question at the moment. Running the 3 sites together on one server is going to save me £20.00 monthly, so thats another £5 weekly I don't have to earn.
On the positive side, my stomachs behaving itself, probably because I've had two days when I haven't eaten much at all through the tirednes, oversleeping and general hassle. My black moods are only lasting an hour or so - if I keep my brain and body active it tends to stop the negative thoughts creeping in - most of the time anyway. So, being busy, I've got the excuse to stay in today.
Especially as my first overtime shift starts at 7am tomorrow. 22 hours off to change from nights to days. My body clocks going to be totally shot by the end of this month.
Until tomorrow.
Paul
I've definately got the wifes flu, bubbling up under the surface, so I've doubled my vitamin intake, and up to yet, the tablets here are doing an admirable job. can't afford to be off work sick!
Finished nightshift this morning at 7am, got home at 8,got the daughter and one of her friends on a sleepover, and the wifes at work doing overtime.
Talking about overtime, I've worked out that to balance my books this year I've got to earn an extra £39.93 a day for the next year - 365 days- to get the income in I need. £39.93 doesn't sound a lot, if you say it quickly does it?
To start things off, I've just managed to secure 3 overtime shifts this month, which gives me an extra £240.00. Thats only another £997.83 to earn then to balance this months figures up.
I'm still juggling this months finances to even things up a bit. I've delayed paying BT until next payday, so I'm going to use that cash on the mortgage instead. I reckon I thought about the mortgage payment 10-15 times last night when I was at work. My hardest part yesterday was telling my wife I couldn't meet this months full mortgage payment.
And yesterdays mortgage increase means the monthly bill's going to increase by about £16-18 - so my figures Thursday are already out of date.
On the positive side, I'm moving my retail website domain to my American servers - I think there's enough room on them to host it-bearing in mind the retail site is about 1,000 web pages (maybe more) all designed by me, by hand, as a web designer, and his wages, are totally out of the question at the moment. Running the 3 sites together on one server is going to save me £20.00 monthly, so thats another £5 weekly I don't have to earn.
On the positive side, my stomachs behaving itself, probably because I've had two days when I haven't eaten much at all through the tirednes, oversleeping and general hassle. My black moods are only lasting an hour or so - if I keep my brain and body active it tends to stop the negative thoughts creeping in - most of the time anyway. So, being busy, I've got the excuse to stay in today.
Especially as my first overtime shift starts at 7am tomorrow. 22 hours off to change from nights to days. My body clocks going to be totally shot by the end of this month.
Until tomorrow.
Paul
Friday, January 12, 2007
Friday 12th January - One Ruined Day
Todays been a total waste of time. set the alarm for 1.30pm after working the nightshift last night, woke up when it went off, but fell back asleep and didn't get up to 4.15pm
So the days been wasted. I got so tired last night for some reason and I couldn't work out why.
Woke up today late, flustered, so much to do, and no time to do anything now at all, and in addition to that, I've woke up with a sore throat and a bit of an headache. Maybe I've caught the wifes flu!
I have done a couple of things though - I've managed to balance this months books, by only by paying half the mortgage, so now I'm £300-400 in arrears with them, which I'll catch up with over the next couple of months.
New year, new default on the credit record. Ah well, at least most other things have been paid. I can pay the mortgage, and leave everything else, or try and do half and half. as the phone bills got to be paid today as well, thats another £200 including internet.
Carly, I've answered your comments on the last post by the way. I always answer the coments, but can only do so by adding another comment under yours. So if you, or anyone else, is kind enough to leave me a comment, I'll always answer - whether good or bad. thanks for your support Carly - really appreciate it -
And todays problem is...........my car started making an horrible grinding noise on the way home this morning, I think it's something wrong with the front suspension. I drive a red Nissan Sunny, M reg, and it's the last thing I want now to have a car breakdown. Especially as I just put the weeks petrol in it first.
I just couldn't make up my life, could I?
Until tomorrow
Paul
So the days been wasted. I got so tired last night for some reason and I couldn't work out why.
Woke up today late, flustered, so much to do, and no time to do anything now at all, and in addition to that, I've woke up with a sore throat and a bit of an headache. Maybe I've caught the wifes flu!
I have done a couple of things though - I've managed to balance this months books, by only by paying half the mortgage, so now I'm £300-400 in arrears with them, which I'll catch up with over the next couple of months.
New year, new default on the credit record. Ah well, at least most other things have been paid. I can pay the mortgage, and leave everything else, or try and do half and half. as the phone bills got to be paid today as well, thats another £200 including internet.
Carly, I've answered your comments on the last post by the way. I always answer the coments, but can only do so by adding another comment under yours. So if you, or anyone else, is kind enough to leave me a comment, I'll always answer - whether good or bad. thanks for your support Carly - really appreciate it -
And todays problem is...........my car started making an horrible grinding noise on the way home this morning, I think it's something wrong with the front suspension. I drive a red Nissan Sunny, M reg, and it's the last thing I want now to have a car breakdown. Especially as I just put the weeks petrol in it first.
I just couldn't make up my life, could I?
Until tomorrow
Paul
Wednesday, January 10, 2007
Tuesday 10th January - Non stop all day
Well, what a day. My feet haven't touched the ground today at all. Non stop all day. Had to go out 3 times today, and it's now 5.45pm and I'm hurriedly writing this post before I leave the house AGAIN for a 12 hour nightshift in Kings Lynn.
My daughter missed the bus to the College of West Anglia this morning so I had to take her there. Can't remember what time I got back, but was only in the house for about half hour and I had to go out again. Then I had to go to the bank this afternoon to transfer cash from my wages to the business account to meet some bills.
Could have done this this morning, but I forgot to take ID with me so I couldn't transfer money out of my account over the counter, and had to come back home without going to the bank. What a prat!
I've managed to squeeze in some advertising using my safelist submitter (a piece of software that sends the same ad out to 1,700 safelist groups just by clicking send) so hopefully I'll generate a couple of enquiries today.
Used the software yesterday as well but only got 6 page views according to the web page counter, no sales at all. Wednesdays are usually quiet, but can be good on rare occasions.
So, yes, I'm stressed out again. Today has just flown by, and I have a problem if I think I haven't used the day properly. The day was spoilt anyway as soon as I woke up this morning because I realised that I'm at work tonight, and working where I work naturally puts a dampner on any day.
I've done the yearly budget as well since I last posted, and it's as bad as I thought it was going to be. I'm on a basic wage of £384 weekly, making £19,968 per year, but I need £28,051.68 NETT to pay everything properly. Which means I need to earn £34,503.60 over the next 12 months, just to stay where I am. And that doesn't include life insurance or pensions either. So, I'm £14,535.60 short just to exist.
Or, £279.53 short every week. How do other people make ends meet? I'd love to know. It seems most of the time I'm the only one struggling. Not that that's the whole problem - it's just that this situation has no end in sight - and that's really bad.
Until tomorrow
Paul
My daughter missed the bus to the College of West Anglia this morning so I had to take her there. Can't remember what time I got back, but was only in the house for about half hour and I had to go out again. Then I had to go to the bank this afternoon to transfer cash from my wages to the business account to meet some bills.
Could have done this this morning, but I forgot to take ID with me so I couldn't transfer money out of my account over the counter, and had to come back home without going to the bank. What a prat!
I've managed to squeeze in some advertising using my safelist submitter (a piece of software that sends the same ad out to 1,700 safelist groups just by clicking send) so hopefully I'll generate a couple of enquiries today.
Used the software yesterday as well but only got 6 page views according to the web page counter, no sales at all. Wednesdays are usually quiet, but can be good on rare occasions.
So, yes, I'm stressed out again. Today has just flown by, and I have a problem if I think I haven't used the day properly. The day was spoilt anyway as soon as I woke up this morning because I realised that I'm at work tonight, and working where I work naturally puts a dampner on any day.
I've done the yearly budget as well since I last posted, and it's as bad as I thought it was going to be. I'm on a basic wage of £384 weekly, making £19,968 per year, but I need £28,051.68 NETT to pay everything properly. Which means I need to earn £34,503.60 over the next 12 months, just to stay where I am. And that doesn't include life insurance or pensions either. So, I'm £14,535.60 short just to exist.
Or, £279.53 short every week. How do other people make ends meet? I'd love to know. It seems most of the time I'm the only one struggling. Not that that's the whole problem - it's just that this situation has no end in sight - and that's really bad.
Until tomorrow
Paul
Tuesday, January 09, 2007
Monday 9th January First sale of the year!
Payday tomorrow - and I'm peed off about it already because again, I haven't got enouggh to meet all the bills. Still haven't done this new years budget yet either, so I'm walking into the dark.
Why am I like this? Why do I put off the important things, knowing I'm constantly going to struggle? I know I'm scared - I never make enough money to meet all the bills every month, let alone saving anything. I guess I just don't want to know how far from the target I'm going to be.
The business now costs me, what, £250.00 monthly to run, and with very few customers, it's having to be paid out of my wages.
Anyway, spent most of today sorting out the retail web site - I want this on line by the end of the month if I can. Then I can move on.
Target Earnings today: £137.36
Actual Earnings: £ 0.00
Business Sales: £ 7.45
Total Shortfall: £129.91
Shortfall to Date: £512.79
Why am I like this? Why do I put off the important things, knowing I'm constantly going to struggle? I know I'm scared - I never make enough money to meet all the bills every month, let alone saving anything. I guess I just don't want to know how far from the target I'm going to be.
The business now costs me, what, £250.00 monthly to run, and with very few customers, it's having to be paid out of my wages.
Anyway, spent most of today sorting out the retail web site - I want this on line by the end of the month if I can. Then I can move on.
Target Earnings today: £137.36
Actual Earnings: £ 0.00
Business Sales: £ 7.45
Total Shortfall: £129.91
Shortfall to Date: £512.79
Sunday, January 07, 2007
Sunday 7th January - One Week On
Well, one week into my new year resolutions, the main one is to earn £50,000 this year.
I'm now on my week off from work, and at the end of my first week of the new year, I'm a total of £382.88 short of the needed weekly total to earn £50,000.
First week. £382.88 Short. Not good.
Spent most of today sorting out my retail web site. Maybe this is my way forward - when I can actually get it on line and start promoting it that is!
Target daily earnings: £137.36
Actual Earnings: £0.00
Shortfall to date: £382.88
I'm now on my week off from work, and at the end of my first week of the new year, I'm a total of £382.88 short of the needed weekly total to earn £50,000.
First week. £382.88 Short. Not good.
Spent most of today sorting out my retail web site. Maybe this is my way forward - when I can actually get it on line and start promoting it that is!
Target daily earnings: £137.36
Actual Earnings: £0.00
Shortfall to date: £382.88
Saturday, January 06, 2007
Sat 6th January
Finished Nightshift at 7am, went to bed, got up at 1pm, finished formatting and putting my software back into the new PC hard drive, now I'm ready to go again. Hooray! Nothing else to report today. Day off from my "Proper Job"
Target Daily Earnings £137.36
Actual £0.00
Daily shortfall £137.36
Total Shortfall to date:
(50K Target) £345.52
Target Daily Earnings £137.36
Actual £0.00
Daily shortfall £137.36
Total Shortfall to date:
(50K Target) £345.52
Friday, January 05, 2007
Fri 5th January- What a day!
Finished nightshift at 7am, drove straight to my Employers office to collect my advance cheque (32 miles-ish), then droveto thecompanies bank at 9am to cash the cheque,then drove from there back to Kings Lynn, to the oil suplliers to pay for the oil delivery, then drove home, getting home at just after 11am.
Drove a total of about 120 miles to get this problem oil sorted out, immediately after a 12 hour nightshift.
Best thing about today? Meeting up with my old line manager for the first time in 2 years. the strangest thing though was walking into the building I used to work in and finding strangers doing my old job. Didn't recognise anyone there at all at first.
But, my old manager says my old job is open, and he'd take me back tomorrow to do it. We also spoke about management opportunities with the company. Flattered? Yes, I was.
But, to go back there, would mean £260 monthly petrol bill, with 3 hours travelling on top of a 12 hour nightshift. Extreme sleep deprivation as well, and having to give up the business plans.
Too many sacrifices.
Other than that, nothing to report! Oil problem sorted, and the oil was delivered before 12pm.
Total earning today: £96.00
Daily Target shortfall: £41.36
Total shortfall to date (50K Target) £208.16
Drove a total of about 120 miles to get this problem oil sorted out, immediately after a 12 hour nightshift.
Best thing about today? Meeting up with my old line manager for the first time in 2 years. the strangest thing though was walking into the building I used to work in and finding strangers doing my old job. Didn't recognise anyone there at all at first.
But, my old manager says my old job is open, and he'd take me back tomorrow to do it. We also spoke about management opportunities with the company. Flattered? Yes, I was.
But, to go back there, would mean £260 monthly petrol bill, with 3 hours travelling on top of a 12 hour nightshift. Extreme sleep deprivation as well, and having to give up the business plans.
Too many sacrifices.
Other than that, nothing to report! Oil problem sorted, and the oil was delivered before 12pm.
Total earning today: £96.00
Daily Target shortfall: £41.36
Total shortfall to date (50K Target) £208.16
Thursday, January 04, 2007
Thurs 4th January - No Heating
Got home after finishing a nightshift at 8am and found we'd run out of heating oil for the boiler. No mains gas here!
Now, no oil, no heating, and no money. Cold weekend forecast.
The oil was supposed to last another two weeks or so, but I guess with Christmas, and my wife being home with the flu, meant that the heatings been on virtually 24/7 for two weeks.
Got up at 2pm and spent the next 3 hours talking to our oil suppliers and my employers to get a wages advance to pay for the oil.
Now, totally stressed out again.
No advertising, no sales today.
Total earnings today: £96.00
Shortfall on Daily Target: £41.36
Total shortfall to date on 50K target: £166.80
Now, no oil, no heating, and no money. Cold weekend forecast.
The oil was supposed to last another two weeks or so, but I guess with Christmas, and my wife being home with the flu, meant that the heatings been on virtually 24/7 for two weeks.
Got up at 2pm and spent the next 3 hours talking to our oil suppliers and my employers to get a wages advance to pay for the oil.
Now, totally stressed out again.
No advertising, no sales today.
Total earnings today: £96.00
Shortfall on Daily Target: £41.36
Total shortfall to date on 50K target: £166.80
Wednesday, January 03, 2007
New Year Resolutions
Besides getting the business up and running properly again, without getting scammed this time, there's two main new year resolutions:
1. To give up smoking - I don't want to, I need to though for the following reasons: (in order of importance) Health, Finance, and the new law banning smoking in public places which comes into effect on the 1st July
2. To earn £50,000 this year. This equates to a weekly total of £961.54, a daily total of £137.36.
I'll keep the totals going through the year.
Upto, and including 3rd January, I've earned a total of £328.00
I should have earned a total of: £412.08
Total shortfall to date is: £84.08
1. To give up smoking - I don't want to, I need to though for the following reasons: (in order of importance) Health, Finance, and the new law banning smoking in public places which comes into effect on the 1st July
2. To earn £50,000 this year. This equates to a weekly total of £961.54, a daily total of £137.36.
I'll keep the totals going through the year.
Upto, and including 3rd January, I've earned a total of £328.00
I should have earned a total of: £412.08
Total shortfall to date is: £84.08
Weds 3rd January. And todays problem is.........
Well, would you credit it - my stomach problems started to come back, maybe as a result of the stress attack yesterday?
For the first time in 18 months, food got stuck in my windpipe again after swollowing. This is what happens when you get a STRICTURE. Basically, the stomach makes an incredible amount
of acid durig a stress attack (part of the flight or flee instinctive response), and over time, this acid comes up the throat, burning the skin on it's way up. This burnt skin then scars.
Because the acid keeps coming up from the stomach, it scars the scar, so, eventually, the scar can grow out into the windpipe, blocking it. This blockage is called a stricture. This is the blockage that food gets stuck on. The rest of the incident is painful, and until the blockage clears itself - either up or down, pain ensues. Sometimes it clears in minutes, other times, it can take hours.
My St John's wort tablets have now run out, so it's back to the Tesco version for a couple of weeks or so - a mimimal amount of the plant has got to be better than none at all hasn't it?
Started to reformat my new hard drive today. No work for the business again, except that I managed to cover about 4 hours on my new web site through an hectic nightshift in which I had people coming in and out all night, and I dealt with a phonecall from the Divisional Officer of
a fire brigade at 1am this morning, helping sort out a "major incident"- his words, not mine, in which I had to locate several data sheets for some chemicals they'd found involved in the incident.
No advertising today, no sales. Total daily earnings today: £96.00
Shortfall on target: £41.36
Yearly Shortfall to date: £125.44
For the first time in 18 months, food got stuck in my windpipe again after swollowing. This is what happens when you get a STRICTURE. Basically, the stomach makes an incredible amount
of acid durig a stress attack (part of the flight or flee instinctive response), and over time, this acid comes up the throat, burning the skin on it's way up. This burnt skin then scars.
Because the acid keeps coming up from the stomach, it scars the scar, so, eventually, the scar can grow out into the windpipe, blocking it. This blockage is called a stricture. This is the blockage that food gets stuck on. The rest of the incident is painful, and until the blockage clears itself - either up or down, pain ensues. Sometimes it clears in minutes, other times, it can take hours.
My St John's wort tablets have now run out, so it's back to the Tesco version for a couple of weeks or so - a mimimal amount of the plant has got to be better than none at all hasn't it?
Started to reformat my new hard drive today. No work for the business again, except that I managed to cover about 4 hours on my new web site through an hectic nightshift in which I had people coming in and out all night, and I dealt with a phonecall from the Divisional Officer of
a fire brigade at 1am this morning, helping sort out a "major incident"- his words, not mine, in which I had to locate several data sheets for some chemicals they'd found involved in the incident.
No advertising today, no sales. Total daily earnings today: £96.00
Shortfall on target: £41.36
Yearly Shortfall to date: £125.44
Tuesday, January 02, 2007
January 2nd- Computer Crashed!
What is with this new retail site of mine? Am I not supposed to get it on line or something?
Soooo Annoying! Computers crashed, terminally, and I've lost a load of stuff I was getting ready to upload to the new website.
If everything happens for a reason,like they say, then I'm starting to have severe doubts. I won't be able to sort it out properly until the weekend either when my night shifts finish.Thank God I've backed most of my stuff up though!
Nothing else to report-up at 2pm, no advertising, no sales, worked nightshift from 7pm to 7am.Managed to spend about 6 hours on my web site work though during the quiet periods.
Running out of St john's Wort tablets now so I'm down to one tablet daily and they still run out tomorrow.
Had a fairly major stress attack whilst at work, brought on by being so busy before I left for work. Started properly at about 7.30pm and lasted through to about 1.30am. Heart Racing, stomach pains,panicky, headache, all for no apparent reason other than I was so busy before I went to work.
Or is it because just the one St John's Wort tablets not enough to work properly?
Soooo Annoying! Computers crashed, terminally, and I've lost a load of stuff I was getting ready to upload to the new website.
If everything happens for a reason,like they say, then I'm starting to have severe doubts. I won't be able to sort it out properly until the weekend either when my night shifts finish.Thank God I've backed most of my stuff up though!
Nothing else to report-up at 2pm, no advertising, no sales, worked nightshift from 7pm to 7am.Managed to spend about 6 hours on my web site work though during the quiet periods.
Running out of St john's Wort tablets now so I'm down to one tablet daily and they still run out tomorrow.
Had a fairly major stress attack whilst at work, brought on by being so busy before I left for work. Started properly at about 7.30pm and lasted through to about 1.30am. Heart Racing, stomach pains,panicky, headache, all for no apparent reason other than I was so busy before I went to work.
Or is it because just the one St John's Wort tablets not enough to work properly?
Monday, January 01, 2007
Jan 1st - Kitchen Refit Finished
These men have worked hard for the last 3 days- and the kitchen's now finished. Dust everywhere, everything's covered in inches of fine dust.
Sonia, my wife, is ill with Flu, which she's caught after Brian, our son, brought it home with him just before Christmas. I'm doubling up on my Vitamin C intake - I just can't afford to be ill at the moment, and I don't want to work nightshifts with the flu.
Sonias birthday today. Can't afford to buy her a present again. As normal, it's the same every year. She says it doesn't matter - but it does to me. This year has got to change.
Really busy with visitors today, firstly the builders, then one of my wifes friends from work, then the mother-in-law, with a couple of my wife's cousins. Really grateful for visitors, the house seems too quiet without any kids.
Brians in Spain visting his fried, and Kelly, our daughter has had a sleepover with friends in the nearest town, got to pick her up at 3pm.
Michelle, daughter no 2 came over to see her mum after I'd left for work so I missed her visit.
Had just 1 hour after the visitors left to get something to eat, bath and get ready to work the nightshift again.
Business: No advertising, no sales. Did 6 hours on the retail web site whilst on nightshift. Found I'd used the wrong business for Paypal buttons - got to go back over 450 ish web pages now to correct the buttons. There seems to ALWAYS be something to stop me loading this site - must be fate, I know that once a decisions been made, fate steps in on a character building exercise, testing our inner strength, making sure we're not weak and, therfore, give up.
This is my/our future. I must overcome all difficulties and not give up. I'll just keep plodding away at it, I'm still aiming to get everything on line by the end of January.
New year resolutions, household budget and business goals not done yet. Hopefully, tomorrow!
Sonia, my wife, is ill with Flu, which she's caught after Brian, our son, brought it home with him just before Christmas. I'm doubling up on my Vitamin C intake - I just can't afford to be ill at the moment, and I don't want to work nightshifts with the flu.
Sonias birthday today. Can't afford to buy her a present again. As normal, it's the same every year. She says it doesn't matter - but it does to me. This year has got to change.
Really busy with visitors today, firstly the builders, then one of my wifes friends from work, then the mother-in-law, with a couple of my wife's cousins. Really grateful for visitors, the house seems too quiet without any kids.
Brians in Spain visting his fried, and Kelly, our daughter has had a sleepover with friends in the nearest town, got to pick her up at 3pm.
Michelle, daughter no 2 came over to see her mum after I'd left for work so I missed her visit.
Had just 1 hour after the visitors left to get something to eat, bath and get ready to work the nightshift again.
Business: No advertising, no sales. Did 6 hours on the retail web site whilst on nightshift. Found I'd used the wrong business for Paypal buttons - got to go back over 450 ish web pages now to correct the buttons. There seems to ALWAYS be something to stop me loading this site - must be fate, I know that once a decisions been made, fate steps in on a character building exercise, testing our inner strength, making sure we're not weak and, therfore, give up.
This is my/our future. I must overcome all difficulties and not give up. I'll just keep plodding away at it, I'm still aiming to get everything on line by the end of January.
New year resolutions, household budget and business goals not done yet. Hopefully, tomorrow!
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