Saturday 28th - New Day, New Start

Thanks Dewdrop and E2S for your comments yesterday. Its now almost 6am on a new day and I hope to be able to get my act together again starting from now.

I think what grieves me more than anything is that my brains only too willing to tolerate things as they are, instead of accepting the idea of what they could, and rightfully should, be.

It grieves me severely that I'm doing the non-important things, almost as if I'm willing to accept the rut I'm in. Why has this situation started to become my comfort zone? Why have beome increasingly lazy in trying to dig myself out of this hole?

I can't just roll over and accept things as they are. It's wrong - and will put me and The Family into poverty forever. My brains at loggerheads with itself and this must change.

And the only way I can change this is by positive action which my brain stops me from taking. And that makes me extremely angry, both with the acceptance itself, and the laziness.

Anyway, today's a new day, although I don't feel any different yet. And although I'm just out the door for another 12 hour shift, I'm hoping to at least achieve something for myself at work today.

Okay, got to go
Paul

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